I have the most difficulty answering the question, ‘So what do you do?’.
Let me tell you the agony of being the kid who has tried a lot of things but never stuck to one. A kid who has made poor choices by probably asking poor questions to herself and letting herself be driven by poorly thought insights. I have the fear of not trying something better and not possessing anything solid and good enough at the same time. Perhaps, one may not have it all.
I could not find anything I was passionate about. I dabbled my hands in a lot of things. Reading books of every sort - finance, technology, history, psychology, economics and the like.
For me, the early 20s have come with a lot of redefinitions. I have had to start afresh from the ground up and re-align my present with the past choices made by an adolescent who had not learnt how to think very well. (and is still figuring it out)
From choosing a career, the degree to pursue and the university to get enrolled in? These have been very important decisions that are essential and life-altering for an 18-year-old.
Is it a form of insecurity - this lack of conviction or the recurring doubt that entails after deciding on my own?
Is it what the 20s are for?